Procrastination or Self-Care?
I’ve been tired lately, really tired. In fact some days I need to pull over and have a 10 minute rest before I even get home. And as I get older, I have noticed that my capacity to “burn the candle at both ends” has decreased dramatically. Not that long ago, I could work at the day job, see a private client or two, and then study or do some marketing until 10 or 11 at night. These days, not so much.
Some nights, it’s all I can do to make dinner, tidy a bit, and get ready for the next day.
I was thinking the other evening that I “should” get something done, and I started reflecting on whether I was procrastinating or if I was listening to my inner self that was crying for rest. And I started thinking about my feelings of guilt, and feeling “not good enough” and always feeling I need to do more.
I’m learning to stop being so hard on myself if I don’t get all the tasks done on my to do list. I’m learning that I need to pace myself a bit more than I used to. I’m learning that it’s okay to take a night off and just tune out and watch tv or read a book.
But it’s hard to do that. There’s so much I want to get done in my life, and there’s so much I want to learn and share with others. Then I realized that this was also something that I needed to learn - and not just book learning - and that I could share it with others, and ask that their thoughts were, and how they handled these kinds of pressure.
I would love to hear your thoughts, and how you balance these things in your life.